FOR BETTER INTENTIONS ( F.B.I.)

How can you know what is right?

1 Take society - laws and tradition
2 God- commandments and suggested ways to live
3 YOU- internal feeling/ gut responses/duty


Bunch it all together and come up with a "rational" conclusion of what is morally right.....RIGHT?

well my philosophy teacher would say otherwise.



Do you understand ....Take a look at history Shanelle....

can you see it


1 can you see the lynching, the slaves, the NO BLACKS Allowed signs, the jim crow laws, the family picnics where people were hung and body parts were collected/ pickled for souvenirs all while the kids ran around and had a jolly ol time, the racial profiling, the redlining, the high interest rates, the liquor stores, the unprepared students, the 3/5 human, and can't forget them white sheets and burning crosses.....

These were/are all " legally practiced traditions" ... so when i think about adding THIS societies ever changing moral views/laws into my equation is THAT rational


well NO if you put it that way professor......



2 Now God ....she's good right?
I mean if you are religious, you are supposed to listen to the teachings of your creator. follow the commandments lead a just and obedient life in the service of your Lord,RIGHT but ......interpretation of said teachings comes across to so many different understandings .. Me reading "THOU SHALL NOT bear FALSE witness" ...translates to don't lie or put false blame upon others ...and then you have Joe Copper who may read it as I can't blame the guy next door for the robbery but hey i need to check someone out so let me just arrest him for an hour or so.


". . . conceal not testimony. And whoever conceals it, his heart is surely sinful. And God knows what you do."
-Islam

"Not to render a decision on one's personal opinion, but only on the evidence of two witnesses, who saw what actually occurred"
-Judaism


Religion is always perplexing because ultimately it's man made. So I'll keep the Faith leave it in God's hands and continue to question. Different God's bear different laws. How will that person act who doesn't have a God? Will their morals values be better or worse because they lead a Godless life? and what about different religions? They serve and follow their beliefs differently than I do, so how can we hold the same standards of morality?...law??...societies traditions???


3 You .. what do you feel is right deep down in your gut. well well well everyone's gut is not quite the same now is it .. my gut tells me that,

THAT was WRONG
that was WRONG to hold someone against their will because they were driving while BLACK...
that was WRONG to racially profile and arrest a person even after you established they didn't fit your profile and did a thorough background check....

That was WRONG TO Aim your GUNs at AN INNOCENT Unarmed 50 YEAR OLD MOTHER OF FOUR

That was WRONG to handcuff someones MOTHER

THAT was WRONG tO pUT MY MOTHER ON THE GROUND

THAT was WRONG to put YOUR FILTHY HANDS on MY MOTHER as YOU Proceeded to FRISK her

that was WRONG to continue to HARASS MY MOTHER and now whenever she goes to the grocery store she will have that vivid memory of 9/9/09

that was WRONG to HUMILIATE this Christian, church going, choir singing, obedient child of GOD


but on the other side ......

in my gut i was right ... I was following procedure and doing my duty as a law officer
i was right in NOT explaining my deepest apologizes for the misunderstanding
i was right in causing her blood pressure to rise
i was right in holding her for an exceptionally long time against her will
i was right i have a badge ... i was right


and then you have the psycho mass murdering crazies .. their Right is not the same as mine









Do YOU underSTAND???????



P.S.

"The revolution will not be televised"
this is what i found in regards to the false arrest

http://www.lohud.com/article/20090909/NEWS01/909090387/1018/NEWS02/Armed%20robber%20hits%20Putnam%20County%20Savings%20Bank%20in%20Southeast

http://www.lohud.com/article/20090910/NEWS04/909100415/1242/NEWS0406/Putnam%20investigators%20continue%20probe%20into%20Southeast%20bank%20heist?GID=T4YZF1KQ+tFZ/WRal7G7K3+LVMJB+8Ccly60fS8J050%3D

http://www.midhudsonmostwanted.com/stories/20090909-1.html



nice and vague and uninformative.........That's News for ya ...it's not breaking NEWS that her life was altered when she was falsely arrested


-Peace

My first time

click on the links below to view Me in Action!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XGyRWDtx1Ss

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ChMLmd01UlA&feature=related




- Peace

My Peace of Mind

I play this when I need peace of mind. It's my mother singing

Shoot if they can spit ..Maaaan I can too

aight I'mma explain this further ...

see you know when someone hypes up an artist and then you actually listen to them and they are garbage .. that's how i felt the other day and i was like dag i NEED SOME OF THAT oLD SKOOL raP ...I miss the days when MOST artist told a story .. you know what i'm saying they actually had something to say ....so when i wrote this song I'm making fun of SOME of these new artist that make hit's off of anything ... and do nothing but repeat the same phrase the whole song ....

Shoot if they can spit ..Maaaan I can too..hahhahaha


Look out for my album release ...=) (I have way too much fun with this)











i got this ...

uh huh... yeah ... one ... two ....one.. two

check it ..........



verse is tight like yo tuPPerware???

KEEP IT FRESH ....WATCH ME HOLD IT DOWN ... SEE ME .. REALLY CARE???

-i THINK NOT


i DROP THESE LYRICS LIKE A BROKEN GLASS..
CUTTING RAPPERS... slashing HAZARDOUS FLOWS .... SEE THEY GOT NO CASH

-i'M FILTHY





(SING THAT HOOK)
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yEA.... THIS NEW SKOOL GET'S OLD

RAPS STINK JUST LIKE MoooHHHoolddd...
YEA ...YEA THEY DO........

oooo. YEAH ....

tHEY LYRICS BE WACK ....
THEN THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO CRAAHHHHAACCCCKKK


i NEED SOME OF THAT oLD SKOOL rAP

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i KEEP YOU UP LIKE A LATE NIGHT SHOW
WAKING BABIES .... WATCH ME THROWING FITS ... cAUSE THEY JUST DON'T KNOW

-I'M CRANKY




EAT THESE ARTIST LIKE A CHOCOLATE BAR ...FLIP THE wRAPPER .. SEE ME TAKE A BITE.. ...WATCH THAT GO REAL FAR

-i'M hUNGRY










(SING THAT HOOK)
************************************************************************
yEA.... THIS NEW SKOOL GET'S OLD

RAPS STINK JUST LIKE MoooHHHoolddd...
YEA ...YEA THEY DO........

oooo. YEAH ....

tHEY LYRICS BE WACK ....
THEN THEY HAVE THE NERVE TO CRAAHHHHAACCCCKKK


i NEED SOME OF THAT oLD SKOOL rAAAAHHAAP

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wHAT EVA HAPPENED TO THOSE DOPE MC'S

tweet tweet

Twitter me this .... uhhhh what's the point

just another way to stalk someone's life without you actually knowing or talking to them ....shoot i got facebook, myspace, blackplanet, migente, and my blog sites ...for all of that lol


twitter just means another log-in another password ... and some more wasted time


updates and interactions .. bridging the gaps of oceans, acres, and stars to fans....

umm and for those of you who think the " " celebrity responded to your tweet .. get a clue hun ... they hire people to keep those up to date .. especially when their friends/followers/tweeters are in the millions


networking at it's supreme...that's all a bunch of dookkkey...lol....just another site that someone else makes millions on while you WASTE YOUR TIME...

this social networking is taking over people's lives....they are so aware of "what's going on in YOUR life" they spend less and less time pursuing their goals


I think I will go with my father on this one, only use the comp for: news, emails, and the occasional movie oh yea can't forget my blog =)


Does that make me ol' school, since i don't use tweeter twitter whateva the heck you call it ........OMG i'm only 23 ... ... when i was young lol...we used Aim ....man times have changed



----imma go read a book
PEACE

Who me ??????

hey ...

( who me ????)

yea you

( lol...sup)

what chu got for lunch today?


( nothing but the finest..)


uhhh .. and what would that be?


( chicken and rice )


lol ooooohh the finest of the fine huh ...lol



..............................................................................................

I am what you call the "Office Bully"


I go around check out who has the most mouth watering lunch and proceed to share it ;)

yup I share lunch's that i didn't even make lol... i'm so bad






................................LunchTIME


mmmm can you smell that
that aroma is ......is mesmerizing

absolutely tantalizing making me walk through this maze of cubicles like a hunger crazied zombie...FOOOOOODDDD


where is it ... sniff snifff....where is that beckoning scent coming from ... sniff sniff



draw me closer and closer to your PLATE ...

oooo my stomach jus can't wait


the spices of your dish dance through my nasal to my soul and create this aura of pure GLEEEEEE


and then I spot it .....

hey there BUDDDDDYYY... You don't mind if I .....
**blink blink ...blink blink*** ---of the eyelashes


( Mind if you WHAT Shanelle , share my lunch like you always do)--with a smirk on his face


mmm .. yea .. well you know how i get when i smell that chicken and rice

( yea yea ... go head grab a plate .. i brought extra this time )


awww Gee thanks ...




----work's everytime



p.s. this was dedicated to my Co -worker the one and only "Tony Roland"

Permission to sniff....

( when and when not to accept free gifts from men )


off to work i go ...
just another dollar just another day
sitting in the office
tryna make some pay

................................okay enough rhyming


o boy here comes Stanley ....
Alias Dirty Old Man ...alias Tryna Beat ...alias when pigs fly


Now I have been working with Stanley for a year now and every time i see him it's the same old thing...

Stanley -----Morning Lady
Me ---- Hi Stanley
Stanley ---- Permission to sniff
Me------ Willing to die today Playa


lol let me explain this properly ... Stanley here sells oils on the side .. completely understandable in these " hard economic times" lol .... I ain't hatin on his hussle ... I'm hatin on the delivery of his hussle...lmao ... plain and simple he thinks i'm cute, right .. so every once in a while he'll slide me some free merchandise ... some free oils ... which is cool.. but it's his morning routine that creeps me out .... everyday like clock work , dude will come in ...say hi and ask Permission to snifffff.....gross.... he likes to sniff my neck and see which oil i decided to wear today .....


hence my reaction

free gifts are cool ... lol but obviously not from everyone ... there is always some kinda price to pay .....










P.s.
this was my dramatic rendition of a tale from a Sister we like to call E.T... lol you know who you are lady


come here guuurrrrlll .... and let me smell them oils on your neck...lololololololololol

And you thought it was just women.....

So have you had the sudden urge to buy a Porsche

Comb three lonely strands of hair across your dome

Or carry a keg instead of a six pack ( lmao)


Well then you just might be slipping into the

Mid Life Crisis ……dunt dunt duhhhhhhh



Okay let me be nice

Don’t fret Gentlemen … think of it as the glass is half full…. instead of gray .. I mean empty lmao


Welcome the age of Mid Life … embrace all of your life looooooonnngg accomplishments in work, family, and community.



*********WARNING *******

*********WARNING *******



Please Refrain from acting like a D.O.M ( DIRTY OLD MAN) …. It’s sooo not a good look








aight………….Let’s take it back …. I mean waaaay back




Maann what a Swing’in time …

I grew up with Afros and Peace signs ,,, ya dig

Nana’s home cooked meals and molasses sweetened my tea
And those wheels were solid just… like… me



None of that ridin durty in hyped up tin cars ……..




Ooooohhh weee and those Bell bottoms mmm can’t forget them bell bottoms ….they fit the ladies’ hips like no otha

Back when you saw a man and called him Brotha’


A time when jive turkey meant wack

And my people were Proud to BE BLACK



“Ohh Mercccyyy Merccccyyy Me Ohhh, things ain't what they used to be Noooo”



Just Groovin’ to the sounds of Marvin Gaye…………..


-double dutch
-wicker chairs
- Soul Train
-Black Panthers
-fresh lemonade



and the only tracks Sistahs had played MUSIC



Man those were the days .......






So don’t look at me as a man going through a mid life crisis… I’m a piece of history just like you

Like a fine wine baby ...I only get betta with age




J.C. Me Shanelle

p.s. just for you Father ...lol

Radiate

shine on me..... oooohh yea


ok well i took a nap in the sunlight the other day... and it was amazing
granted it's awfully frigid outside..... just have a seat behind a window and sun bathe...
i tell ya it does a body good

just feels so peaceful ...

maybe put some soft calm music on in the background ...

and just let your eyelids slide

no thoughts

no racing of deadlines, appointments, meetings or bills


take a sec and relax

focus on one thing that makes you truly happy

or nothing at all

breathe

first in then out

slow


slower


become conscious of all your blessings

and feel the warmth as it seeps through your soul


do be do be dooooo


only you can make yourself happy


stop with all the excuses and scapegoating

breathe

slowly


ok now open your eyes ( lol i know they are since you're reading this )


go about your day

and always continue to Radiate






-Peace-
( lol yea so i have been reading meditation books lately)

White Amber Oil

Did i mix you with water

Cause when i look at your bottle i never seem to get the full effect of your essence

just little droplets here and there





sitting.... and watching... and then waiting for it all to coagulate into something that's once again whole




but then as a single solution

the white amber oil that i have come to adore



how do i use you ......
I don’t know whether to set you afire out of anger/frustration/and my bottled emotions or
To light your fire and welcome the boiling and simmering of your burning incense that fills my nostrils and soothes my soul












Burning the Midnight Oil ..............





the air is frigid and the wind bites my nose as i walk the lonely road on a cold December night



just another day



just another gust of cruel unforgiving wind that slaps my face and chaps my once succulent lips





i enter the house



the scent of your oils

makes me feel at home

the warmth wraps me with memories of past and future ..........i'll send you the rest later




Well just wanted to wish you a Happy Birthday Pops




- Shanelle

TwIsted

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Made ya Look






I had to do it ...

and just think you have contributed to making my day that much brighter ... and i promise this is my first and last time doing this .... lmao


leave a comment and remember the Sun will come out TOMmmmORRRROOOWWWW

OHHH MY GOSSSHHH

Did ya'll get the news ....

OBAMA was just announced the new President Elect ( ok ok I know it was like 14 days ago )



Now you know what that means right


I no longer have to worry about " where and when i enter there and then my whole race follows"
cause it's all on OBama now .......pweeewww my shoulders feel so much ...lighter



the new face of Amerika .. the new spokesman for the race ... can ya'll see it

can you see the wave of change as it flashes before your eyes...

i just know one thing I'm not falling for it nor am i hopping on the blind people bandwagon ...shoot my eyes are wide open


remain cautious

and Obama you have my blessing


My pride is swelling with joy as i live and witness history ... i don't want you reading this wrong and thinking im against Obama ( just to make that clear) ... but it doesn't mean i'mma lose all sense of self control and tact in my celebration of a new day .... now we still got our work cut out for us ...cause a crumb is not equal to a loaf of bread just like a black President Elect CANNOT erase hundreds of years of deception, murder, and rape amongst other things.......... shoot i know my history .. i have seen what this country has done to "it's people" ( native amerikans, asain amerikans, irish amerikans, african amerikans, italian amerikans)






Oh and I just wanna hit on the new wave of Afrocentrism

hope it lasts longer than his term ...


I was proud in the past I'll be proud now and after all is said and done
Standing tall with head held high and Afro Blowing in your Face....


GO OBAmmmmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaa